Inspiring Video Games
15-3-2026
Adventure Games > Sandbox Games
Adventure games teaches us to be curius about our surrounding, for it is filled with endless suprises and adventures.
Sandbox games tells us to prestige, to come up with something, while that can also be fun, it is not as important as adventure in nature and the world.
I am the most happy when I am on adventure, creativity is also fun, but it is second.
My favorite ideological/moralistic games:
* Noas Ark DOS
* Lego: Star Wars games
My favorite adventure games:
* Lego Indiana Jones
* Mulle Meck
* Down under Dan
* Äventyrarna: Pyramidens hemlighet
* Pettson och Findus
* Zelda: Phantom Hourglass
* Zelda: Skyward Sword
I wish there was a spirited away video game, many of the ghibli movies would make great adventure games
I very much prefer naturalistic adventure games over fantasy adventure games, like Star Wars, Star Wars is more about morals, which is still second to adventure and open mindedness.
but then again morals is important for balance in the world.
Actually you know what, order is above chaos.
Genres in order of importance:
* Ideological/Moral games
* Adventure Games
* Eduware
* Simulators
* Sandbox games
Don't play MMOs, I have, they're not good for you, garbage all of them.
I've heard Wizard101 is still running, addicting stuff, don't touch that.
To adjust society around people who get crippling PTSD from sexual trauma is stupid.
The weak should respect the strong.
I think improvisation is more important than composition in music, prestigeless, just being in contact with emotions.
I feel like Jordan Peterson has already reminded people enough to go to church, it's my job to remind people to touch grass.
I read an interesting quote today: "If you demand love, there is no love within you."
Basically you get love from doing work, lazy people want love without doing any work.
I'm completely depressed today, don't know why.
What gives my life meaning? Why the f*ck do I get out of bed?
I need an answer to that.
Do I live for exploration?
Do I live for food?
Do I live for God?
I live for collective exploration I would say.
I live for collective exploration and Jesus.
I need to go outside, something is sure to awake my curiosity.
I wonder if the CP-incidents in gymnasiet broke my brain, I have such annoying mood swings.
Like if I knew my brain would go bonkers I wouldn't have done it, but they didn't teach anything about the brain going goofy from TMSO in school.
It definitely did change me.
I think the *total* hate towards TMSOs is temporary, but man things sure suck now.
and I am quite existential.
Cattos and Doggos, that's the social framework(not to be followed squarely) of the seculars, be a citizen first and foremost though.
but no one plays that right now.
It's quite lonesome being a conventional-superior secular at the moment.
The world does not spark my interest at the moment.
I'm just totally depressed.
Escapism isn't for me, I believe in directly adressing your issues.
Who does society belong to?
14-3-2026
Society is a playground for adults, not for kids.
It's just the aesthetic of ever prioritizing adults over kids that comes off as irresponsible to people.
I've read more on the difference between protestants and catholics, yeah I prefer the protestants.
decentralized, the way open-source people like it.
I had extremely goofy ideas of the difference between the two, so previous writings are done with uneducated ideas about these two.
Yeah no, no CPSC, CPSC is for squares.
Cattos, Doggos.
I want to be more normal, but that means submitting to a world in which I am not center, and I need to learn to do that.
I need to practice being in social gatherings in which I am not center.
That is something I think I have been bad at.
I actually want to be more in the normal crowd, but my ego has stopped me.
I can think of times where I actually wanted to be more normal, but my ego made me go deeper into the weirdness, but that just makes me feel worse.
I like being not completely normal, but I've gone deeper into weirdness than I actually want.
I need to turn more towards normal.
be in a gathering where someone else is in center and follow that person.
But still not leaving my values, still saying no when things aren't the way I want them to be.
My ego has stopped me from forming contact when I actually wanted it.
I can think of so many moments where things just weren't grandios enough for my ego.
I need to embrace things not being grandios, things just being chill, contact.
My SSRIs have really helped with that.
I need to think more about peoples feelings, be more pro-social, be better at contact.
While indeed there is a war on the normies, it is not my "dragon", my "dragon" is my refusal to be in a hierarchy in which I am not the best.
There's always a war on the normies.
To live like a caricature is for people with unhandled trauma.
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Funktionskläder är sexiga.
Smartphones really has given everybody malign CPSC.
CPSC in Zenism
13-3-2026
I think episodisism will be the dominant thing
So not chronic autism, but alternating autism and CPSC.
I have very much aspergers right now, but I don't think that will always be the case, I will go to CPSC periodically.
Some sort of protestant CPSC is maybe the answer? yes, that makes the most sense, because order is above chaos
The shirt represents the idea that order is above chaos.
CPSC represents that order is above chaos.
When I am depressed I do feel unloveable, who could love someone who doesn't do anything? I could not like myself if I met myself.
I don't like depression.
but I must remember to not let my depression make me bitter.
Why do orten people all h*te TMSOs?
12-3-2026
Is rampant TMSO a component of low-trust cultures? typ orten kultur.
When you have genetic predisposition to stroke it is important to get *regular* cardiovascular exercise.
I jog/bike a long ride every day and do smaller walks every 30-45 minutes.
I really don't like gen Z, they are hyper-informal and their world view revolves around private smartphone chats rather than formality and the web, that's stupid.
Growing up people would sort of say, there is the normies, there are the catholics, and then there is Vincent, who is his entirely own thing.
I didn't know you could get violent neurological reactions being exposed to TMSO, I feel like people who were victims of TMSO when they were young got a head start on this.
They don't teach that in school, I didn't think such could happen.
If I knew that I would be much more catious not to get close to any such stuff ever.
In any case I don't think societies laws should be shaped around people with neurological conditions.
I really do think smartphones have made people overtly moralistic, catholic.
People can't think naturalistically, darwinistically.
Do women not get carer feelings these days? Do men get carer feelings more than women? That would mean men fantasize about getting pregnant more than women haha.
With TMSOs you are always evaluating risk, and when it's really low you can just let them work with minors or in places where there are minors.
* CP possesion = Can work with minors
* Oaktsam CP possession = can work with minors
* Oaktsam byxmyndighetsbrott = kan arbeta med minderåriga
* våldtäkt = kan inte arbeta med minderåriga, på ett tag, några år(att slänga ut människor ur samhället för våldtäkt är VÄLDIGT disproportioneligt)
ska sägas att det finns våldtäkt och våldtäkt, måste graderas enligt skada sked
* passiv vid våldtäkt = kan arbeta med minderåriga
* CP production = can't work with minors
It needs to stand clear we have an impotency problem, not a potency problem, so society can definitely afford to lighten up on it's relationship to sex offenders.
Att det skulle vara barns rättighet att vuxna som begår brott mot dem får disporoportioneliga straff är nonsens.
straffen ska vara proportioneliga även när det är barn som är offer.
Suddenly smartphones turned society into pure noise incomprehensible to logical people, people with asperger and we escaped to the web.
Carer feelings = a strong sense of responsibility to care for someone and look out for them, possibly accompanied by fantasizes of getting impregnated by them/having children with them.
Är Astrid Lidngren child-rapist by todays standards? Filma barn nakna? Barn kan väl inte samtycka?
There's always been bigger beings, not sure why people act like AIs the first.
Jag gillar gruppfoton, klassfoton, församlingsfoton, comrades-foton, sociosexuell enighet, går typ igång på det.
Conventionalist, except the protestants, I just view as deeply mentally ill, their games and world view is just so crazy.
There is a decent chance CPSC will still be a part of Zenism, just more lax, fewer rules, remove the dumb ones.
I need to start studying french man, studying german for 4 years was a waste, germans speak great english.
deciding Fursona
11-3-2026
I am deciding my fursona it is between Lokatt and varg.
I am varg I think, I am the leader of the wolf pack.
Yes I am a flockdjur.
I want social-liberal politics because I want people to think.
People should be allowed to sell garbage as long as they are open about it.
But I won't do that.
Gen Z isn't just uneducated they are maleducated, their heads are filled with soo much garbage, woke-speak, conventional-speak, normie-speak.
Normism almost makes me lose faith in humanity, but my citizenism will restore it.
Jag tror den vanligaste orsaken till barnpornografibrott är nog bara nyfikenhet inte att man är pedofil.
Det är mindre risk att låta barn interagera med barnpornografibrottslingar och även människor som varit oaktsamma med byxmyndighetsåldern än att låta dem åka slalom.
Ser inte människor vara lika hysteriska över utförsåkning.
När människor börjar prata om risk för att utveckla disproportioneliga fobier och PTSD, det är inget argument, det går väl att få vart som helst.
I will remember normism as endless hysteria. I will not remember it fondly.
E-nomad-maxxing
9-3-2026
I am e-nomad-maxxing again, taking my laptop with me everywhere so I can do E stuff everywhere.
Le epic reddit, Newgrounds, gamer, valve, can't stop a gaben.
E > Normies.
Citizenism > normism.
Normism is waste of brain power
I genuinely think society would collapse if we actually threw out all TMSOs, we need to rethink this, exactly how I'm not sure yet, but we have to rewrite it.
The first step is to allow TMSOs to have jobs that don't involve minors and establish that society is for adults not children.
The merge will be an almost supernatural feeling event like the great dinosaur extinction, and you will live to witness it.
Truly there has always been greater beings watching over us, we do not bother ourselves with the battles of giants, we focus on our dragons.
All friends I have that have flunked on the child porn law once I would let interact with a minor any day of the week.
I've never intentionally gotten child porn.
Det finns aktsamt barnpornografibrott och oaktsamt.
Varför finns begreppet oaktsam våldtäkt? Låter paradoxalt, kallar det bara sexuell oaktsamhet.
Jag tycker inte barnpornografibrott är tillräckligt för att man inte ska få arbeta med minderåriga.
krävs våldtäkt eller aktsamt sexuellt närmande minderåring minst, då får man hitta annat.
barnpornografi-innehavs-brott är så jäkla vanligt.
Jag kommer fortsätta finpilla på dessa kategorier.
Don't expect more damage than they did in any case.
Oproportionelig PTSD går inte att skylla på förövare.
Ser jag ofta.
Det är faktiskt också en livsfilosofisk fråga, hur mycket risk får man utsätta ett barn för?
Utsätter man dom inte för risk blir de utvecklingsstörda, jag ser inget moraliskt fel med att utsätta barn för mindre risk.
Jag blev informerad idag om "jesu kristi kyrka av sista dagars heliga"
Varenda religion och samfund ger en liksom borderline, vad om den är den rätta kyrkan och jag är i fel?
Man blir helvetesrädd av varende en.
Hur ska man reagera på att man finns?
Jag kommer ihåg maya-kalender-året 2012, jag var livrädd i flera månader.
my daily dose of borderline.
Convetional world view is commonly, but not necessarily tied to CPSC.
När boomers som växte upp i den värsta rape-culture klagar på att man har kollat på lite barnporr då blir man lack asså.
There is definitely that element of boomers massively cucking gen-Z guys, like boomers going so deep in that established-male-vibe and gen z guys going ultra-cuck accepting being b*tches of the system.
I've looked to russia for masculine inspiration, secular-impulse-positive, logic no nonsense type stuff.
If you ever wonder where I get my inspiration from.
Been like that since 2014, that's when I really started disliking swedish masculinity.
If you can't get a job speaking logic something is seriously wrong.
"People don't want logic", you're thinking like a capitalist, not a socialist.
Give people what they need, not what they want.
Not that I have applied for any jobs, I'm still trying to fix my autism.
I working up my ability at the social-service thing in Sweden.
People with autism makes people with conventional world view discomfortable because they lack CPSC, which is typical of people with conventional world view.
Society is for adults not kids
9-3-2026
My greatest argument in this whole global TMSO hysteria is that society is for adults not kids.
Society shouldn't be 100% child safe.
We would have may way more TMSOs self reporting themselves if so many didn't hold this stupid view.
I believe schools shouldn't hire TMSOs, but that's about it, all other places don't need to be child safe.
Disproportionate punishments makes people false.
If someone wants their child to be safe out in general society they should walk with them, rather than making society 100% child safe, that's idiotic.
Passive TMSOs can still work with children, but you're still going to hell!!! XD
and child porn TMSOs can work with children under supervision atleast.
I hope normalizing TMSOs in society leads to more reporting and divorces.
A bit weird but logically correct.
My semi-eye folds made me think I had some sort of birth defect when I was young, I started questioning my racial purity early.
Russia, China and Japan are a massive inspiration to me.
Just asia in general.
* Gender equality.
* Practicalism
* Androgynism
* Androgynism wear
* Socialism
* Science
* Nature orientalism
* Tough & Strive masculinity and femininity
While I believe people should be allowd to sell garbage as long as they are honest about it, I will still practice trade/crafts honour.
Why waste your time doing garbage.
I think most closeted TMSOs are so because of freeze, they just don't know what to do, so they do nothing.
I don't think witnesses have to report, but they should.
TMSO categories:
* Active TMSO, rape => can't work with minors
* Active TMSO, CP(child porn) => can work with minors supervised
* Passive TMSO, rape => can work with minors
* Passive TMSO, CP => can work with minors
But I really do think you should report TMSOs you see.
I think society would collapse if passive TMSOs couldn't work with children.
I don't expect all TMSOs to start reporting themselves, but atleast more than currently.
E really is the best, it wouldn't matter if I got integrated into society, E is still my home.
Globalism and intellectualism is what E is.
I'm booked for my first colonoscopy, we gen Z need to start with that stuff earlier because we grew up around a sh*t ton of microtoxins and bad food.
The Everst 96 disaster should be turned into a movie, like Titanic, samma vibe som Avatar 1 eller Titanic.
I feel like society has entered a retrospective simmer these past 7 years, I like it, just going through 80s and 90s stuff, I love those times. Lots of goodies
Love hearing stories from oldies who were there.
Please do the same before they all die of colorectal cancer.
I love that 90s hyperblue. just pure blue. not a natural sky color, effect of high saturation photos
Spaceflight Simulator
Flight simulator
Boat simulator
I just love the simulators man
I like life games, edu games, adventure games that have a meaningful story, story games
I prefer 2000s PC culture to 2010s PC culture, suddenly everything became about graphics, man I don't care.
GamegamerSWE shoutout
I don't understand, why do nerds respect the normists? Don't f*cking do that.
The secular collectivist must win!
thugs believe you get to heaven despite having killed 10 guys and caused 100 overdoses, as long as you aren't a TMSO.
You have to be loyal to the Jesus message of love above all if you want to ge to heaven.
Otherwise you end up in skärselden.
and have to restart yes.
I've never viewed the world like a normist, normal = good, only like a christian, do wrong feel bad, do good feel good.
Can't remember ever doing bad without feeling shame about it.
But I have been divided between catholicism and protestantism, there is that part of me that says gayness and especially TMSO leads to hell.
I have that disproportionality within me, but it budges with time, neurological vestigiality.
Exercise helps with that.
I don't believe in thought crime
8-3-2026
to imagine something isn't a crime.
There are active and passive TMSOs.
Passive: failure to report TMSO.
Distinguish between:
* Active TMSO(I'm still 50/50 if people in this category can work with minors, depends on severity maybe)
* Passive TMSO(Can work with minors)
both are going to hell though XD
I would say low-trust is a component of the conventional world view psyche.
I think Bill Gates is autistic, had he been open about his two affairs with two russian women earlier he would have had a greater public perception, but for some reason he waited with it, making people suspicious.
He has also talked so weirdly in interviews, like Michael Jackson haha, "Better be careful who you meet", sounded so suspicious.
I didn't think anything of the photo of him standing next to Epstein, means nothing.
He's more autistic than Elon Musk, who cares massively about his public perception, doesn't feel that autistic, in fact quite the opposite, socially gifted.
Jag förstår att människor i fängelse, separation från allmän befolkning, människor olämpliga för den allmäna kasten måste visuellt gå att differensiera från resten, men jag gillar inte de flesta fängelsekläderna, ser så dehumaniserande ut, tycker det borde vara lägre krav på markering.
Kan man lära sig att älska allt och alla? I strive to do that, to have zero inhibition and to see reality completely.
After all, what I say is wrong with gen Z is all these algorithm platforms that try to give you what you want rather than what is.
Jag vill uppnå 100% neurologisk renhet, bara se.
Why can you bully TMSOs to death but not transsexuals? In a democracy everyone needs to be able to bully everyone.
It's interesting how school doesn't teach that going against conventional-view can buzz your brain a bit, if anything school teaches to ignore it, but all the ghetto kids know about it somehow.
Love is really important, love is endless inspiration.
Without love life is just meaningless, not sure who can live without love.
Without love people don't move an inch.
All I do I do for love(Bidirectional neurological activity).
I think I am a pacifist.
I feel nothing man, depressions sucks, I'm uninspired.
Orten-människor tänker att man kan skjuta hur många som helst och sälja hur mycket knark som helst och komma till himmelen,
jag anser att man måste vara en god medborgare under merparten av livet och följa Jesus.
Om man inte följer Jesus och-eller inte är god medborgare hamnar man i skärselden och måste restart.
Den svenska naturalismens väktare! Stay strong.
Människor måste våga vara mer i offentliga rummet. Enbart trädet som ses falla faller. Att människor sitter och tänker hemma för sig själv har inget värde
Growing up with autism around smartphones
7-3-2026
Growing up in hypernormism, smartphones with autism has been nothing short of hell.
People endlessly bully me because of my lacking theory-of-mind and my *minor*, harm-short, impulses.
People build endless chaos with private chat cults.
The last 7 years have been lost to this nonsense.
Will I die before this nonsense will end? it just doesn't seem to ever end for some reason.
The web is my life-boat, it keeps me sane, it keeps me from depersonalisation.
Not sure what I would do without E.
E is love, E is life.
Society has united around disorder and chaos, the web is the only place where there is still order.
I thought smartphones would unite people around intellectualism, but instead it has united people around endless brain-dead bullying of deviants.
I get depersonalisation every time I go outside, it's pure hell.
I really want it to stop, but I can't do anything as long as people keep having these private chat cults.
I don't feel like I'm missing out at least, these people are just endless bullies.
Everyone loses on hypernormism.
The brain fog and depersonalisation, it's so god damn bad.
There really is a war between hypernormism and intellectualism.
The global TMSO satanic panic can't be good for gen Z potency, don't encourage impotence.
It makes gen Z more inhibited than they already are.
Barnafödandet är lågt på grund av fysisk och psykisk impotens.
"It's too much risk to let TMSOs work with children"
But life is just risk, it's not about getting rid of risk, just keeping it at a balanced level.
Risk and impulse is good in the right amount.
Though this isn't top priority.
Raising children is maybe for the more inhibited kind.
I first want greater acceptance of TMSOs in society.
Conventionalist unironically think we should adjust society around their triggers.
"Homosexuals give me borderline" Okay I don't care.
I will show people citizenism is better than normism.
Jag frågar mig själv ofta, är allt detta goda, global kollektivism, empati, strävan, kärlek, nyfikenhet, mänsklighet, kamratskap, vetenskap, naturlig andlighet, ärlighet, JESUS, är det bara en hägring?
Misslyckades jag testet av den fria viljan i högstadiet när jag skrev den där homosagan? eller när frågade om att få se dick-picken av den där superkonstiga snubben i ettan?
Jag vet den sekulära framvägen bättre än någon, men är jag egentligen ond? Leder jag inte bara alla ner i helvete för att lida olidgt evigt?
update 15-3-2026: Is there a version of the bible that says that? burn insufferably forever? Can't remember reading that, just something I made up.
35 är det nya 25.
Människor är så jäkla virriga fortfarande vid 25 numera.
I dagens politik är det väldigt mycket att man ska ge folk det dom vill ha, vara så friktionslös och okontroversiell som möjligt.
Politiskt neutrala politiker.
Jag planerade inte på att bli livsfilosof, men de två autisterna i rummet med mest fosterstadietestosteron är dömda till att slåss om livsåskådning.
I think it's important to hold the ugly in low regard and the beautiful beings in great regard.
People and their actions must be evaluated.
We must distinguish the good from the bad.
This is not apparent to some left-wingers.
I look at animals every day, so beautiful, so inspiring.
The ugliest people and events teaches me the most beautiful wisdom.
Right now my belief that the world is balanced isn't so much, I'm sure my trust in a balanced world will eventually return.
I say while listening to Skyscape - Erik Wöllo
My trust in karma slowly grows back every time I lose it.
Can't raise children without risk
6-3-2026
I do consider the possibility that even TMSOs that have had sex with minors, such as 18 year olds sleeping with 17 year olds can work with minors after some time.
No-risk people will say no, but I will say what does not kill only makes a person stronger.
unless you've killed children I still think you can work with children.
Of course that does divide people.
My friend when he worked with children told me they don't even allow kids to draw violence, war, anymore, how bizarre.
If we operate within the domain of some sort of absolute logical correct I'm in the right, you can not be, become without risk, iteration, impulse.
But who is to say this world is made of logic?
Either the hysteria around TMSOs is satanic panic or it's no-risk-obsession, in either case I win because my opponents here are either schizophrenics or idiots who think you can be without being.
If there is anything the introduction of AI has taught us you can't have societal strive without chaos.
Thinking of that adolescent who commited suicide after getting AI induced psychosis, or it was something like that.
A part of normism is to label life philosophers insane, particularly unpleasant for those of us who God has given this role.
I didn't even ask for this job, I planned on being a music teacher who makes obscure github games in my spare time, but I got this job.
I think Terry Davis was one of those who didn't like being given this job, I've met many such.
As said, normism labels life philosophers crazy uncles, insane, mentally disabled.
My grandma on my dads side brother was labeled crazy uncle, was the pondering kind.
There is zero respect for this job in todays society.
Now, while I design my website for PC first, I do think that smartphones are also cool and will work more towards making my website smartphone/tablet compatible.
I've gotten much more consistent at taking my medicine, as a patient, I can say anafranil has helped me amazingly dealing with my autism.
I feel my autism becomes lower, I feel more in contact with my surrounding, less aloof, less depersonalized, I feel my patos, understanding of others realities increase.
100% autism has no value, no purpose, just makes you completely aloof and non-functioning, like Terry Davis.
I will eventually do a brain activity scan of my brain off and on anafranil, I'm so curius what part of the brain it is activating.
Then I could identify the part of the brain associated with patos/CPSC.
I feel so bad for weird kids who grow up post-smartphone takeover, surely it must be *totally* claustrophobic.
I can understand why there is a rise in terrorism in young men.
I need to get back into space flight simulators.
Nothing inspires me as much as the night sky, the stars the planets, the satelites.
I honestly don't know how to feel about being TMSO because of those gymnasie-events, do you actually go to hell for that?
Wouldn't want to end up there.
But I don't know how to not get there.
The more proportional thing would be a slap on the wrist.
I really don't have an answer to the meaning of life.
You don't get answers to all questions.
Just going to have to accept that.
I felt the exact same when I made that Yaoi back in högstadiet.
very gay, felt very satanic.
to be or not to be, hmm.
You don't get answers to all questions.
Just going to have to accept that.
Iteration is key to success
5-3-2026
I had an amount of time where I thought Hälsinggårdsskolan was right for me in högstadiet before I switched to Engelska Skolan.
I had an amount of time where I thought Kalmar was right for me before settling on falun.
The degree to which I've explored the most absurd branches, eventual dead-ends.
I can just accept such is exploration.
Don't expect to find the answer immediately.
UPDATE 6-3-2026:
I studied at Music Conservatory, but really I should probably have studied engineering/tech, but that did give me something.
Also there are opportunities to be human everywhere.
He who walks with love is eternally young.
Im going to stop making a new paper for every little entry, just have one paper for each day.
My entire youth I've chased some sort of good, but the dominant conventional ideas of good are inhibition and passivity, that has almost defeated me.
What makes us all go forward on each our own paths is impulsivity, so I think of it as positive, in moderation.
There must be balance, and I find in most there isn't, there is too little, atleast as of writing.
Maybe society was a mistake.
When we aren't exposed to the elements we are exposed to intangible gibberish most can't filter.
Society makes most people stupid.
I miss simple role society.
People should take the simple mundane role God has planned for them, they are sure to find the greatest satisfaction in that.
I will always accept my role, no matter its mundaneness or simplicity, or grandiosity and graveness if that is the case.
I spend way more time on my PC than on my smartphone, I don't understand why anyone would spend all their time looking at a screen that doesn't fit anything.
PC culture > Smartphone culture.
Despite PCs having existed since the ~70s things didn't become complete brainrot until smartphones.
It was the smartphone that turned people from citizens to barbarians.
There is a war between PC culture and Smartphone culture.
I do think that the PC will make a comeback.
It is the greatest intellectual pass-time activity.
Like old school PC culture with preference for mid graphics.
It's cheap, aligned with my vision of compact living society.
Depersonalisation
5-3-2026
Had some depersonalisation when I went out today.
Ways of dealing with depersonalisation:
* Posting on twitter
* Making a youtube video
* Hanging out with a friend in real life, taking a walk.
* Talking with a friend on the internet
Ways of not dealing with depersonalisation:
* Taking a walk amongst a bunch of strangers who don't really affirm you, or know who you are.
Affirmation, however you get it, is the treatment for depersonalisation.
Affirmation really is everything.
disregard whatever I've said earlier about secular collectivism,
I am with secular collectivist, not secular, I am protestant.
Uppnå hälsolugn
5-3-2026
Min hälsa har tagit mycket stryk senaste åren, hoppas på att det inte är för allvarligt.
Att stress inte har förtidsåldrat mitt hjärt-och-kärlsystem för mycket.
lungor inte har fått i sig för mycket damm.
Jag måste fortsätta att komma ihåg den där visdomen.
De vackraste människorna har flest ärr.
Kroppen ska användas.
We can not become without being a bit destroyed.
I believe in the merge
5-3-2026
For many years now, ever since the smartphone came, we've had the problem of the web/society reality split.
While us web people live in reality, very careful about separating reality from fiction, society people, normists,
dig themselves deeper and deeper into their own fantasy world with private chat cults where they just write a bunch of sh*t.
For bidirectional alignment society must merge with the web, with the web being the superior one that society has to align itself with.
The tree that falls in the forest with no one around to hear it
5-3-2026
It is what we do in public that matters, for if we do it in private it might as well have not happend, that's why public display of bidirectional values is so much higher in value than in private.
maximal SMV.
The law of observation states only the observed happens, atleast in the practical sense.
The law of observation is why Zenism is universal "religion" you can not unsubscribe from.
Can't unsubscribe from physics.
It's rooted in the natural darwinism of the universe.
It's also why survival of the most cooperative is universal law, rather than survival of the "strongest"
The universe dislikes falseness and psychopathy, believe it or not.
the glow and the leap
5-3-2026
There is always that gap between us and the glow.
"the glow" being where our mind tells us we must go.
There is always the glow, we can keep on rejecting it, or we can jump the gap.
It's never to late to start jumping the gap, never to late to turn our life into a fantasy.
To never experience the glow is to never live as I see it.
We always know where the glow is, but do we go there, or ignore it.
If we fail we fall, but never the less we've felt alive atleast and can just go again.
Life is magic when we face the glow.
Do not reject the glow with logic, embrace instinct.
Reducing life to math is a mistake.
"the glow" is where our instincts tell us to go, people we need to meet, places we need to go, but logic tells us no.
I feel the world talking to me
4-3-2026
I feel the world talking to me.
I have neurologically exposed myself to reality, and thus the world gives me everything.
It beats me, to teach me.
After each day I look up to the beautiful starry night, it is my biggest inspiration.
The sky, space, the stars.
I am so small, there is ever more.
Roko, the beautiful world, Tiki the beater, and me, Hero.
We all have our Tikis, we all have our heroes tale.
This is how I live, exposed to reality, vulnerable.
Update 6-3-2026:
The universe doesn't beat me with any purpose, I just decided to let it teach me.
I hope it is clear the above is metaphorical, the universe isn't speaking to me haha.
I am 100% sane.
or maybe 80% sane.
Swedish is the most beautiful language to me, maybe I will use that in the entry.
My favorite accent of english is british formal english.
Depersonalisation and the absolute importance of affirmation
4-3-2026
When I went outside today I got extreme depersonalisation, that's a shame, going outside used to be what I did for affirmation.
Somethingt is truly wrong.
I don't think my surrounding recognizes me as Dr Vincent E During.
What is going on.
I am addicted to the web for it is only and with my web friends and few IRL friends I get affirmation.
To deny someone affirmation is to deny them everything.
They say the becoming is the highest on the pyramids of needs.
I have not become, for I have not gotten affirmed by the world.
It is only me and a few friends that recognize me.
I have a list of things that help when I get panic attacks of depersonalisation.
i take anafranil.
I go on the web and start writing in my diary, I share it with my friends online and IRL.
Afffirmation is truly everything, without it *everyone* goes insane.
Hypernormism has caused a global mass-deaffirmation of people who are even slightly weird.
A global pandemic of depersonalisation for those that aren't normal enough.
they get neurosocial malreceptorialism.
When not even going outside gives affirmation, the world is truly broken.
It was my number one source of strength once, now it gives me depersonalisation panic attack, something is truly truly wrong.
That was so weird, glad I'm back in my apartment and on the web.
I only get affirmation from fellow marxist nature orientalist.
Normies, and conventionalist give me deaffirmation and derealisation.
Malign CPSC depersonalisation, that's probably my problem.
My heir in case I die prematurely
4-3-2026
If I die before my brain fog disappears and I stop being a hikikomori my heir is
1. Hugo Rousu, if he would also be dead for some reason the next in line is Rasmus Svanberg.
Those are the ones who would have some clue about the significance of my work.
Can't believe I'm writing this, I didn't have any particularly grandiose plans for life, but then things got soo f*cking weird in gymnasiet.
Why can't people just be friends and be nice to each other.
Why do I have brain fog? Is it neurosocial malreceptorialism(neurologically disregarded by peers) or what the f*ck is it?
Death by stroke or something random IDEK.
Crafts/trade honour
3-3-2026
I need to create a crafts/trade honour black list.
Neurospace, Abstract World
3-3-2026
The neurological abstract world and the physical world are tied together.
Suffering is abstract, yet is still realm because the abstract world is real.
I wish to minimize suffering in this world, not just human suffering but also animal suffering.
That's my life philosophy.
I mingle with the protestants, similar values, a bit protestant myself.
XD SWAG KAWAII!!
I suppose I belive I am *a bit* of a non-conventionalist supremacist, the universe favours those that are.
What motivates/inspires me
3-3-2026
I am inspired by beautiful people who do good, from a secular collectivist perspective, help out thy neighbour, praise Jesus, act like citizens, do good things, great craftsmanship, great thinking.
I'm inspired by people free of hate.
That's why I like protestants.
I am not inspired by china CCTV videos.
I am very inspired by animals, cats, dogs, lions, zebras, just all the animals man.
My strong conviction of secular collectivism
1-3-2026
Yeah no that's it.
Normism will still keep existing.
Citizenism will exist for those that want to be a bit more.
So it's not really a replacement
"High-trust is stupid"
People are suprisingly good, not perfect, at keeping to their kind when it comes to level of honesty and crime.
Something about humans being quite pro-social beings.
I'm going to create a left-wing without any of the nonsense, that's it.
Not sure why people think that's impossible.
I think there will come a left-wing and a web where I don't have to put up with woke-speak/catholic-speak
or maybe not within the left-wing, but atleast on the market.
I also think I should be able to be harsh.
I have a hard time thinking woke-speak/catholic-speak will stay above real-speak
Im gettign rid of:
* woke-speak
* Semite-speak
* PG-13 speak
You know because I'm not a capitalist, I'm a secular collectivist, I believe in trade honour, not purposefully selling garbage.
As long as what you're selling is what the customer gets it's fair.
I believe it should be legal to sell garbage, but I don't want anything to do with you.
Also I like the EUs greater emphasis on regulations and thinking about climate change.
Going against conventional world view gives some people PTSD and some don't.
Interesting.
Im not sure why, in Sweden you have to respect children and women at all times or you are a rapist or a pedophile.
Russia and Sweden are both cool socialist countries but each has it's own problem.
In Sweden non-conventionalist are subordinate conventionlist, that's recipe for societal collapse.
In Russia they practice great institutionalism, what goes on inside is hard to figure out, the population is fed lots of propaganda.
Neither is really better than the other.
I actually think Russia is the better one right now.
I wish the Swedish market starts accepting non-conventionalists that are not subordinate conventionalist or else we're gonna merge with the new soviet union.
There are two solutions to the non-conventionalist problem:
* Create a second market(best, gives everyone what they want)
* Institutionalism(not so good, bad transparency)
Det mest enerverande med normister är deras ytlighet och populism, att prata klarspråk, logik och filosofi är fan omöjligt med dessa.
A big part of my genius is I understand formality is superior to informality.
A phenomenom I'm seeing rise that worries me is the rise of woke-fascism.
Kiwifarms got taken of the web because of bullying of transexuals.
Dumpen.se, a TMSO bullying website, despite resulting in many suicides, is still on the web.
I'm seriously concerned about the direction the web is going.
Don't bend to conventionalist and normies.
I really don't like what wwe've seen here in the beginning of smartphones.
Pure chaos, no formality, no order.
In fact disorder is now seen as order, and order is seen as disorder.
As a person with asperger, I h*te this, I can not orient myself in this sh*t at all.
completely neurosocially disoriented.
I need formality.
formality is bidirectionally aligned.
no contact at all, and what is life without contact.
I only hang out with people like myself loyal to formality.
Smartphone people really don't like the web I notice, it's because it represent order, which they hate.
It is so much easier to hate than to love, that's why most hate.
But only love gives *my* soul peace.
TMSO just says if you go against conventional world view, not if you are appropiate around children, that's dictated by the degree of TMSO.
Ever since the Epstein drama the entire world has satanic panic, it's ridiculous.
Why being in modern society feels like being where it is at and being in the third world feels like being in nowhere is because of bidirectional brain activity.
AI Bidirectional neurological activity will not replace human bidirectional neurological activity just like human bidirectional neurological activity did not replace animals bidirectional neurological activity.
UPDATE 5-3-2026:
I haven't been so good at adding update dates when I add small bits of texts to my entries, will get better at that from now on.
Normism is normality eugenics.
"extending the market for pedos, ridiculous"
Not extending the market for pedos, you're mostly extending it for people with impulse.
There are a LOT of impulsive people.
More than probably willing to admit.
Disproportionate laws punish the impulsive the most.
Most TMSOs are not pedos.
Ordinary people doing mistakes, and probably trying to forget about it and hide it.
Balancing autism with anafranil
1-3-2026
Autism is draining, but with anafranil I can balance it.
anafranil makes me more socially adjusted and submissive, it's a great tool for balancing autism.
Being creative, impulsive and intelligent is draining.
I'm fundamentally a formal person, the autism can never go so far I stop being fundamentally formal.
Sociosexual Protocols
28-2-2026
Patriarchy(relevant in the 1800s, early 1900s):
* Respect older men, especially state workers,
Normism:
Normism is the sociosexual protocol in which respect for sociocultural rules determines your right to reproduce, or your "SMV".
rules that can be quite arbitrary and disproportionate and not relevant to secular collectivism such as:
* quite Low-trust, honesty isn't really expected
* Transexuals are women
* TMSOs are to be thrown out of society
* all crime that isn't TMSO is okay
* You can't have asperger, you have to have CPSC constantly
* You have to constantly think about children, women and minorities feelings
* tied to capitalism, money is a goal, not a means to an end
All non-lethal neurological impulsivity I consider positive, since I'm a science guy, creative guy, nature orientalist, secular.
If you don't respect this mountain of retarded rules you get labeled crazy uncle.(Like Markus Persson)
The mountain of arbitrary rules makes normism quite bidirectionally unaligned.
There is a weird phenomenom amongst impoverished people/minorities/lower-caste where they think all crime except for TMSO is okay,
so they break all other laws, such as drug-production-laws, murder-laws,gang-organisation-laws.
They think they are sexy and going to heaven more than TMSOs despite maybe having participated in a dozen murders.
Women are also more likely to have such world-view in my experience.
I need to write an article on convetional world-view vs nature-orientalist world-view
I wish more people thought the path to heaven was being a decent citizen for the majority of your life rather than just not being a TMSO/sexual-deviant.
The reason why gen Z is so inhibited and paranoid is because they do not know if it is future proof to disregard conventional high-strict world-view, such as not being TMSO.
Jag vet att den historiska lösningen när det finns en sexualförbrytare, TMSO eller mildare, i den högre gemenskapen(institution, företag) är att undanhåla detta från allmänheten, folket
Men jag tror faktiskt att samhället har kommit så långt nu att det går att vara TMSO och vara på marknaden, att ha jobb, att detta inte behövs undanhållas från allmänheten.
jag som vetenskapslutande person strävar och uppskattar maximal transparens ser positivt på deinstitutionaliseringen.
I don't think I've understood quite how intensive my presence is because of my autism.
Even though Sweden is secular collectivist I think many want to stay within conventional world view for the sake of mental stability.
We'll see how many want to be conventional superordinate.
I think the people who know they have bidirectional neurology will go conventional superordinate.
The great thing about IND-SOC is you only have to deviate as much from conventional view as you want.
For many people deviance from conventional world view is traumatizing and causes PTSD.
For those that have pure bidirectional neurology it doesn't.
For every person stuck in conventional world-view there is one in nature-orientalistic world-view.
though the nature orientalist are less likely to be so publicly.
Secular Citizenism:
* High-trust protocol, greater expectancy on honesty
In citizenism Your respect for law and order determines your sexual value, your "SMV."
* you have to be authentic and transparent
* it's not okay to break laws
* You have report crimes you are witness to
* You have to do military service
There are no "crazy uncles"
This is more bidirectionally aligned
I'm not sure I can develop this new social protocol entirely on my own, I could definitely need some input and help.
How does a person become TMSO?
* They have sex with a minor while they themselves are above 18
* They have child pornography, while above 18
* They fail to report any such above mentioned incidences, regardless of their own participation in the crime, while above 18
If there are legal consequences for the last point depends on region, but conventional-view people see you as TMSO.
Political Protocols
28-2-2026
CAT-CAP:
* Eye-for-eye, BUT NO TMSOs!!!!!!!(what???? hmm okay, inferior bidirectional alignment)
* Life is a test of *humans* ability to respect a narrow set of rules, animals do not apply
* Profit or loss is a measure of your value as a being
* No TMSOs
* No animal rights
* No welfare
* *equal* but maybe not pleasant rights
* death sentences
* bidirectional alignment better than nazism because of stability
* Many retarded semites think they won over the nazis because of superior alignment with God, which of course is just a bunch of nonsense, they won because of superior alignment with secular collectivism, ironically.
Nazism:
* übermensch and üntermensch, no equal rights
* bidirectionally unaliged because of hyperdestructivity and lack of equal rights
Soviet Union:
* Secular, not positive towards religion
* better equality in rights than nazism, hence superior bidirectional alignment
* extremely science centric, state projects
Secular-IND-SOC:
* "A thinker lives like a king:" Basic rights, equal rights(food, shelter)
* Those comfy tiny japanese compact living modules
* SMV-centric, not money-centric, you are valueable for being(bidirectional brain activity)
* TMSOs up to peoples differing opinion, nature orientalist, semites, protestants+jesus
* Market exists, but is not goal
* A legal system that has to server as many as possible to the best of it's ability
* Animal rights
* Golare får polare, help for victims/perpetrators of crime
* eye-for-eye first, then live-amongst-equals Neurological caste system(separation of people who are post-eye-for-eye)
* Greater bidirectional alignment because of caste system and market that supports nature orientalist, but maintains stability thanks to equal rights, and even animal rights
Journal 2026 Start
17-1-2026
When the web became lutherian/catholic/Normist-centric, cancel culture, really that's when it stopped being *the* web.
Zenist-Normist parallell is balanced.
Normist supremacy is needless to say not balanced.
There currently really isn't any *the* web.
Now it's just *a* big network.
There is the normist web, but it's missing things.
The zenist-normist parallell web/network, that will be a thing.